DEVI; Canine [F]

[Free]

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[bg=045344][atrb=width,450,true][atrb=border,0,true][cs=2] DEVI
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[bg=cccfd8][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,225] PRONUNCIATION: dev-ee NICKNAME(S): Dev SPECIES, BREED(S): Canine, unknown AGE: Three years SEX: Female	[bg=cccfd8][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,225] COLOR(S): Light brown, unvarying in color throughout her body EYE COLOR: Rich, unfathomable brown HEIGHT, WEIGHT: 22", 37 lb MARKINGS: Her chest is white, and it extends up to her chin and down to her stomach. MUTATIONS: N/A
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[bg=cccfd8][atrb=border,0,true][cs=2] PERSONA: Devi is a very quiet dog. She's shy and extremely wary, and to earn her trust takes great patience. If left alone, she seems to shrink into herself, becoming at once defeated and depressed. Her history beats down on her, and she doesn't seem like the same dog. If she is with someone she trusts, or is at least in the same area, she becomes a little more confident. By no means is she self assured or full of self confidence, but she feels freer to be herself. She becomes playful, imitating the puppyhood she never had. She is sweet, gentle, and would do anything for her friends. She hates to take kindness without giving anything back, and she feels the need to repay any debt she has. With someone to share her burdens, she becomes lighter and more carefree. Even with those she loves, Devi hides her insecurities and tries to be normal.
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[bg=cccfd8][atrb=border,0,true][cs=2] HISTORY: Slim, shy, and absolutely stunning. All the things her mother, grandmother, and all of her maternal ancestors had been. A blessing, in all but their own eyes. They see it as a curse, a thing to be pitied, but the world doesn't see it that way. They are prizes to be acquired, prizes to be won. Or in their cases, cruelly taken. Let's start with her grandmother. Her parents had actually managed to stay together, but Kore managed to block out the quarrels and the new gashes that appeared on her mother overnight. As soon as she could, she got out of there, despite her mother warning her not all dogs would be as good as her father. Good as her father? she had thought bitterly. Any male would be better than her father. But as soon as she came into heat that first time, she was raped and left to die. Only she was born of a sturdy family. She didn't die. Instead, she birthed a litter. The first puppy was a female, and she bitterly called her Touche, now knowing what her mother had meant. Kore could not hide her bitterness from her own pups, so Touche had gotten out as fast as she could. She had lasted a bit longer before she too was raped. She was barely old enough to have puppies, and her own brought great distress. She could barely take care of herself, let alone five tiny puppies. She gave them names, names better than her own. But by the time they were weaned, three had died. All that was left was Devi and her brother, Rocky. Devi lasted longer than her mother and grandmother and all those before her. She had a mother who cared enough to talk to her, to warn her. And a brother who wasn't about to let his little sister get hurt. She was grateful to them, and stayed happily in their protection. But they couldn't be there forever. She had just turned one when she was left by herself. She was feeling a little weird, but she ignored it and stayed out of sight. But he found her. He seemed nice, talked to her, coaxed her out. She began to trust him. A nice dog like him, he wasn't one of the ones her mother was talking about. She was a little nervous when he came closer, but it was only to hear her better. At least until he lunged and grabbed the scruff of her neck before she could blink. And then he raped her. Didn't stop until her brother returned to chase him off. He tried to comfort her, console her, but she didn't move. Couldn't. Not even when a pack rumored to kill any dog they strayed across started to come. Her brother managed to drag her for a little while, but his fear was too great. She didn't blame him, because she had just learned a new meaning of fear. They surrounded her, taunting her, but she gave them nothing. She was already cowed, defeated. They quickly grew bored of her. One of the bigger dogs grabbed her by the scruff of her neck. She fought then, but her claws landed on thick fur harmlessly, and her teeth could get nowhere. They dropped her in the river, and she was rushed downstream faster than she imagined was possible. She was half drowned by the time she managed to claw herself up on a bank, but she was afraid it was too late. She was soaked to the bone, and in the winter, she was surely going to die. Then Req found her. The big male curled around her and gave her a reason to live. He slowly earned her trust as he nursed her back to health, but that wasn't the least of their hurdles. Devi was pregnant, and she gave birth to five pups. She relived her childhood with three of the puppies dying, and the other two left together when they were old enough. Devi tried to be a loving mother, but it was hard when she had to look into the face of her rapist every day. She feels guilty for not being the mother they needed, but also relieved that they're gone. Now she has Req to herself, but she's deathly afraid that if she has any puppies with him, she'll want them to stay, and they'll either die or leave her just like her other puppies.
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[bg=045344][atrb=border,0,true][cs=2] FREEBIE
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[bg=cccfd8][atrb=border,0,true][cs=2] ALSO PLAYS: Nobody, as of yet PASSWORD: babyblues SAMPLE: The puppies were horrible. Sure, they were cute, but they were a living, breathing reminder of what had happened to her. She was their mother, she was with them all the time. She had to nurture, at least pretend to love them. With Zayne and Valli the love came easier, but it was so hard to mask the pain and utter dislike of the others. Devi was a good actor, but the extra strain on herself left her wishing they had never come along. Req was supportive, but it wasn't like he could take them away or feed them for a day. At this point, Devi just wanted them to go away. Devi took a deep breath, carefully easing herself away from them. It was dark by now, and they had all finally drifted into a deep enough sleep she could slip away without one of them waking up and snuggling closer. With the five of them, she didn't have to worry about them getting cold, but they were puppies. They wanted to be close to their mom, however much she wanted to distance herself. She felt her maternal instincts with them, but they weren't Req's. She wanted to push them off a cliff. She stole softly out of the den, grabbing a bit of the scruff of Req's neck and wagging her tail. The puppies were in a deep sleep, and she wanted to be with him. Needed to be with someone she loved after dealing with the puppies all day. She made no noise, and softly padded away. She and Req, when she managed to get him to leave the puppies without any supervision, stole away to a shallow valley out of earshot of the den. One, Devi wanted to be able to talk and play with Req and not have to temper her voice, but two, if some predator got to the puppies, she wouldn't have to listen to the helpless puppies' death and have to rush in to help. Devi was horribly conflicted. She meant all she thought about the death or removal of her pups, and yet her kind heart couldn't bear the thought of the poor creatures suffering anything. They didn't deserve it just because they looked like him. Devi couldn't decide whether her fairness or festering hate had the upper hand. Nevertheless, she spent her days pretending the pups were Req's the best she could and loving them as much as she could bear. She was ever afraid that they would see through her act, but not one of them had mentioned anything like that to her or Req. She finally reached their valley, and she looked over her shoulder for Req. The weariness seemed glued to her face, but at least happiness was trying to crowd it out. She wagged her tail at the shaggy male, heart finally bursting with genuine love. She didn't know if he could tell that these nights were the highlight of her week, even month, or if he realized that it was him as much as it was getting away from the puppies. She was shy about her love, even uncomfortable with it, and she kept it as hidden as she could. But while she was tired and stressed and finally getting a break, she had no idea how much she actually showed or not. She bowed to a play stance, eyes dancing at the russet male. Play with me, Req. she teased, slender tail wagging furiously. She was picking up her youth again from the puppies, and she didn't realize just how much she was trying to live her shattered childhood again. She was poised to take off at his first move toward her, putting her long legs to good use. Req could always catch her because she spent so much of her day limiting her movement for the pups, but she was improving. When they were grown, she would at least be an equal match for him.
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[ISSALYN]

Accepted! Congrats on being the first female. (: